Wednesday, November 07, 2012

Willpower

As usual, in the evenings, I would settle down in front of my computer, with a plate of food for my dinner in front of me, ready to watch whatever movies, tv show episodes or movies that I find appealing. I'd usually indulge in an episode or two of Gossip Girl or The Vampire Diaries or incessantly watch youtube videos especially from The Ellen Show. However, yesterday my friend unintendedly reminded me of a website called TED (www.ted.com) which I first knew about from my Clinical Practice sessions.

Since I was "re-exposed" to TED, I became sort of addicted to the videos that were in there. You'd probably want to see the website to know what I'm blabbering about. So today, I continued my "journey" of watching more TED videos, and today, I ended up rediscovering David Blaine.

I'm pretty sure most of you have heard of David Blaine. I don't know about you guys, but before my rediscoverization of him, I only knew him as an illusionist, or a magician. Numerous times too, I came across comments from people saying that he utilizes the help of supernatural beings in order to accomplish his illusions, and unsurprisingly I was consumed with that idea. 

My perception towards him took a 180 degree turn after I watched this TED video of him giving a speech on his excruciating journey on an attempt of setting a new world record for the longest static apnea. Below's the video: 




It has never occurred in my mind that he went through all that pain, time & hard work to achieve his goal. I thought that it would be easy for him to do all those kinds of stuff cause after all, isn't he an illusionist? I went on to youtube and googled some more stuff about him to see what other things he did and how he succeeded in doing them. It gave me chills down my spine thinking of how a human being could go to great lengths, past what most people theoretically think (if I completely ignore the possibility of him using black magic of some sort).

Recall that he said that when he first tried to hold his breath, he could barely survive past one minute. Reflecting this situation to myself metaphorically, I'm still at that "I-could-barely-breath" point. I could go all my life thinking that my capabilities will forever be limited at one stage while I can in fact, surpass that point and even actually go way way beyond. 

I'd like to relate this to me for being very much dormant inside my personal zone these past few months. I haven't been blogging much lately because deep down inside me, I'm afraid that people would see more flaws in me the more I write. I've had many things to share but I'm always like "I'm not good enough to share these things. There are a bunch of people out there who are way better than me. Let them do these stuff." If I were to think like this for the rest, I wouldn't be contributing anything to anyone and even worse, I'd probably eventually lose all the bits and pieces of trust I have towards myself. I often think to myself; I don't want to die as someone who has never contributed, let alone try. Someone once said to me and my friends that someone who has never done anything worth something good is just a leftover of the dunya. Living for decades but ending up with nothing. It would be such a waste, wouldn't it? 

I know that I haven't been the most productive person since ever and this is exactly what I need. I've had a lot of useful inputs from my Ohana & Quranic Circle sessions. The stuff that we talk about in those sessions revolve around things like this too but I guess I never really saw it from a different kind of view. To me, we can learn all we can from books and closed discussions, but it's up to us to think of what we can do with what we learnt. The fact that I'm here in Ireland, living in a different culture and society, should actually be a  good enough situation to make me realise that there is a galore of things that is waiting for me to explore.

To wrap this up, I have a quote which I found from the movie "Ratatouille" where Gusteau said: "Anyone can cook, but only the fearless can be great." :)