Sunday, April 24, 2011

Just Believe :)

This is most probably another deep post from me. I know I'm bad at giving titles to my posts. Haha. This is not catchy at all right? -____-" Well, I just watched a short movie in youtube entitled "Strangers, again". Yea, that's the title. It's about stages in a relationship and there were seven mentioned. It's one of the most meaningful movies I have ever watched, though it lasted for just 16 minutes and 20 seconds.

To those who have long read my blog, I'm pretty sure that you might have noticed a few posts about my break up. It has been almost 5 months now ever since my last relationship ended. It was hard for me at first, but life's actually getting better now (I have never expected I would be happier than before). Well, it's not to say I'm exactly happy, because despite having my family and friends around me, and also God to talk to, I still do feel lonely sometimes, in which I shouldn't. I guess I'm gonna have to try harder to get the hang of this. Ouh well, I'm not going to stress myself on that. It'll come :)

Things do change from time to time. Quite a number of my friends who were once single are now taken; and I what I mean is, A LOT. Life IS like a wheel, sometimes were down on the ground and sometimes we'd be up and above. I had my chance once ago, feeling special in a boy's eyes, and now, I don't have that. That part I had was taken away from my life and is given to someone and I realise that I shouldn't be sad at all coz now, someone else is happy with who I once had. I once came across a beautiful saying in my friend's blog:

"I tell the boys and girls, Allah has already written the names of your spouses for you. What you need to work on is your relationship with Allah s.w.t. He will send him/her to you when you're ready. It's only a matter of time." - Sheikh Mamdouh

I'm on my way of making myself in really believing jodoh. Once ago, I always thought I believed in it, but the person I became in my last relationship truly didn't portray my belief in that. I was always so scared of losing him, always so afraid of distance, and I guess you could already get the picture. It's totally ironic right? 

I know, I realise that I'm just a normal human being. There are times when I feel like I'm beginning to open my heart to love, but I don't know if would be true or it's merely out of loneliness. I often avoid thinking about it and it's better that way. I wouldn't want banana fruit twice. Haha. Of course, I have dreams to catch, goals to achieve, my family and friends to appreciate. I hope Allah will show me the right way. I will just believe :)

Btw, this is the video I mentioned:

Wednesday, April 13, 2011

Pashmina Tutorial (Hana Tajima Inspired)

Hi there :D I just got back from college when I decided to make this tutorial *I'm so excited!* Some of my friends requested me to do it, and so I did. This is my first ever Youtube video and I hope I didn't screw up :D I'm currently addicted to Katy Perry's "ET" so I took some catchy parts of the song and put them in my video *Hopefully it's not violating any rights or anything* So here it is. Idk if this style is very common nowadays, but yea, still, it doesn't hurt to make a video on this, right? :) Btw, I'm sorry if I blabbered too much or made many grammatical errors *dedicated to grammar nazis (one of my friends uses this term)* Anyways, hope you like the video and most of all, hope you benefit from it! :D

Sunday, April 10, 2011


Today is a new day and you'll make the best out of today. You're going to be happy and nothing can ever stop you from that. You'll get a place there :) I love you :D


Friday, April 08, 2011

She Looks Exactly Like Justin Bieber!

How Do You Define Happiness?

Ouh yeahhh, I'm at home *doing the chicken dance in my head*. I'm actually back home this time to celebrate my sister Alin's birthday :) Her birthday was last week, on the 31st of March. So my family's going to go to her boarding school (my previous school) tomorrow and kidnap her from her school. Hee :D

So yea, I'm actually intending to share my experience this morning at the bus station in Butterworth. Yesterday my girls and I hung out at Tintin's house. We had aunty Haniza's scrumptious Shepard Pie and her mouth-watering blueberry cupcakes *love* :) We wish Naz tagged along though. It would be much more fun :)

Anyways, yeah, back to the story. Nabihah, Nell and I left Tintin's house early, at 7.11 a.m. to be precise. We weren't quite sure of how long it would take us to make it to the bus station in Butterworth on time. Our bus was supposed to depart at 8.00 a.m., so yeah, too bad for us, along with that condition, we didn't dare take the risk to drop by at McD as we planned earlier. We arrived there rather early, 7.23 a.m., I guess. We could've had McD *sigh* ahaha.

To make the long story short, we straight away went to the ticket counter to buy our tickets. Nabihah booked them overnight, so all we had to do was to pay for them and collect them. Unexpectedly, there was this some sort of error that they made. We were told that there was this one girl, together with her friend, just collected the bus ticket that we booked. Now how's that?

It seemed that Nabihah's phone number and the girl's phone number has three same digits at the end. There was some sort of confusion there. The bus consortium probably missed out some key points when they took the booking details. That girl was somehow scolded and she was blamed for it. I really didn't get why, and I don't until now. Pity her. 

Relatively, her purpose of going back to KL was much more important than ours, so we had to make a sacrifice there. As there were two of them (that girl and her friend) and there were three of us, Nell and I decided to give way to Nabihah and the two girls go on the 8.00 a.m. bus. So we took the 9.00 a.m bus instead. It was pretty tough, making the decision there because Nabihah felt so bad about leaving us behind and at the same time, she also felt bad for the two girls. Nell and I were okay *cause we already decided on having our breakfast at the jetty* hehe. 

When us three met the girl to confront her about our solution, we could see that she was already teary-eyed. Her face was red out of trying to control herself from crying. How could she not feel like that, it wasn't even her fault. We were so happy that we were able to help her and her friend with that. Thank you Allah for giving us the courage to help one another like that :)

Probably this is one of the reasons why I want to become a doctor. I want to help people with all that I can. To me, happiness comes when I see people around me happy :)

Monday, April 04, 2011

Just For Fun :)

I have so much work to do, but still, I devoted my time doodling in paint. Ahaha. I wanted to draw back a picture of me, which is currently my profile picture in Facebook. Idk what u guys would think about it, but yeah, it's just a silly doodle. Ahaha. Here it is :)

they don't look the same, obviously, but it's sure worth a try *wink wink* ;D

Out of This World

While others are busy with Ben Ashaari and Anatomy, I'm right in front of my laptop typing out my worries, my concerns, my feelings. This feeling sucks. One minute I'm as happy as a dog being thrown a slab of meat in front of em, and the next thing I know, I'm more like a woman who just lost her twelve children and her husband in a car crash. It seems like it's never going to end. This week will be another challenging week, as to the weeks before. Many things are in my mind. Okay, I'm going to list them out one by one here. Hope this would help me.

Aitte, the things I have to do:

1. Study respiratory system tonight
2. Edit & upload pictures
3. Post my friend's birthday gift
4. Buy topup for my sister
5. Fill in IELTS form and check bank account
6. Pay RM50 to tin
7. Finish up physics
8. Update blog
9. Finish one essay
10. Do some reading & self learning

No wonder my mind's in a total mess. I think about all these things at random sequences; at random times. I have up till 11.30 tomorrow to settle no 1 till 6. I can proceed with no 7 till 10 at night. It's going to be a big day. I hope I could get some sleep. Ouh my T__T

Saturday, April 02, 2011

To You, Allah

And then again, I'm crying in my bed. Haven't been crying for ages now. It's cold and quiet. I feel lonely. My human heart wishes to have a guy caring for me more than any other girl he knows. Sometimes it's just hard to disguise the loneliness. But I know, it's probably not the right time, is it? Allah, if I love you right, will I get a nice guy to share my life with someday? I know I'm not perfect, I'm not even expecting a perfect person. Just someone who could love You right, who could love me right. That would do. Okay, I'm going to stop crying now. I have homework to do. I'll see you again very soon. I love you.

Friday, April 01, 2011

Shocking News!

A 2nd interview will be held in June! It's like a miracle. It's what I have been longing for since after the 1st interview cz I knew I screwed it up somehow (I just mentioned about it in the post directly before this one). I thought it would be impossible to happen, but it's actually possible and it WILL be happening! When life gives you a second chance, don't take it for granted *bearing this in mind* :) Thank you Allah! Thank you!

Reach High, Dream Deep

It has been exactly one month since I blogged in here. It has been quite some time I suppose. I wish I were a little bit more diligent when it comes to blogging (or should I not wish for that now that I should be studying instead of writing here?).

Many things had happened throughout the past one month. They are all basically many good things I suppose, except for the fact that I kind of had a glitch during my interview back on the 15th of march 2011. I sure hope that it wouldn't bring any sort of negative impact on the overall impression I made in front of the two interviewers *sigh*. I sobbed that night after the interview and the next day, I swarmed my friends with seemingly never ending questions to assure myself that it wasn't so bad. I'm feeling much better now, after countless self-assurance efforts. Probably feeling at my best. The key is to not think too much about it :)

I'm on my way of finishing a very good novel I'm reading; I guess you might have probably heard of "Eat, Pray, Love" by Elizabeth Gilbert? I like her; I mean the author, of course. She has this diverse way of expressing her personal encounters, not to mention that they are truly interesting. I seem to feel like the author of the book is somehow exactly like me. She is in search of her own self. She wants to learn how to balance her spirituality and her love for the immediate life. She travels. She had a divorce (I had a break up). She feels like she's lack of something. How can I not sound exactly the same like her, well, as far as I believe. I can't wait to dive into the upcoming pages (I have to steal some time here and there; with all the homework I have to manage and revisions to do, I assume it's going to be tough finishing this book in just one week). Still, I'm satisfied to get a grip of this book. Thanks Nabihah :)

Cork. That's one definite dream place for me, which is of course, simply, just one final examination and one english proficiency test away. Yikes. The pre-med students had a meeting with Dato Zainuddin Wazir, our CEO, our college president, and I couldn't help but notice how much he tried to emphasis on English. He mentioned that the Irish interviewers were very satisfied with our academic achievements but they expected more on our communication skills. I wonder how well I did. Besides the glitch I mentioned, I can't help thinking of the fact that I sat on the interview chair swaying side to side minutely. Hehh. At random times, I keep praying that Allah would hijab my mistakes during the interview and just let me in. Hee.

Ouh well, I guess I'm going to blog walk now, after leaving this blog yielding dust for 1 month. I miss blogging. I really do, and I'm happy I that I managed to write this post! Teehee! :P Till then, bye bye :)