Friday, December 31, 2010

Do It Anyway ;)

People are unreasonable, illogical and self-centered. 
Love them anyway.

If you do good, people will accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives. 
Do good anyway. 

If you are successful, you will win false friends and true enemies. 
Succeed anyway.

The good you do today will be forgotten tomorrow. 
Do good anyway. 

Honesty and frankness make you vulnerable. 
Be honest and frank anyway.

The biggest person with the biggest ideas can be 
shot down by the smallest person with the smallest mind. 
Think big anyway. 

What you spend years building may 
be destroyed overnight. 
Build anyway. 

People really need help but may attack if you help them. 
Help people anyway. 

Give the world the best you have 
and you might get kicked in the teeth. 
Give the world the best you've got anyway :)

Marking The End of 2010

Hello & Assalamualaikum :)

The year 2010 has been one heck of a year for me. I never expected going through all I went through this year. This is the year when I had both the best & worst time of my life. It wouldn't be enough for me to tell everything in this single post, without any summarization, of course :)

I'm just not exactly in the best mood to write anything actually because I have so many things in mind to do later on, but I do have some things to share before I leave though.

1st of all, I want to thank my dear friend Iylni for granting me and some of my other blogger friends a very sweet piece of award. That's very nice of u my dear :) Hehe.

The award should be passed around to bloggers who I think have awesome blogs, but I just don't know who I should choose coz I am really a bad blogger stalker. Hahahh. I know I kinda look mean for not naming anyone, but seriously, I just don't know who to name coz all of their blogs look fantastic in my eyes XD

I just began typing but I feel that I need to stop already. I really do have many things to say but my fingers just can't project the letters right now :( I'm just too distracted by my plans for today. Haihhh.

As this marks the end of 2010, I must say I am looking forward for a better year next year. I have so many plans in mind and I hope I can get them accomplished :) InsyaAllah :)

Wednesday, December 29, 2010

Flashback & Fast Forward

Today's already the 29th of December, marking the 2nd last day of the year 2010. Time flies and year 2010 really changed my life, in so many ways. One of the most outstanding highlights in my life is the progression of my  relationship between me and someone I really care about (like really really care about).

I can still remember what happened during the 1st of January 2010 between us; we almost separated because of my mistake; because of my inability to solve my situation the right way. I was wrong and at that time, he provoked me to leave him while I still loved him. I didn't want to leave him, but he forced me to. Then I did. Then he found it hard to live without me so he wanted me back. So for sure, I went back to him. (Okay, I know it sounds so haywire coz I guess those who would understand what I was trying to tell would only be me, him & those who happens to know and remember the big ugly fight).

Nevertheless, later on, we were as close as we could be. Everything seemed so perfect, everyday was a fairytale. I was totally in love with him & I couldn't think of being with another guy.

However, things changed when he entered college. I wasn't the main attention anymore, I wasn't the girlfriend anymore, I wasn't at least half of who I was to him anymore. I initially already feel left out some way so I made a move by hinting that I wasn't happy with the change. I cried when I felt that he didn't want to be with me, I called him more than often, I bugged him. Yeah, I did all those.

Things went rocky for many months between us. We did have lovey dovey times together, but most of the time I felt left out from his life. Okay, yes, I was such a crybaby, I was a lil bit too needy, it's all because I was fighting for the least the essential routine between a boyfriend and a girlfriend. I wanted him to be with me, waiting for me to wish him goodnight, being happy to hear his voice and etc.

I was immature and I wanted commitment, but he could already think extra maturely than me, but he denied commitment. That was our main problem.

Towards the end of our relationship, I was still unable to understand his needs. I couldn't accept his want to flirt around, be free and having the idea of contacting me like only once a week. How is it fair if he could do all those things while wanting me to be my usual nice self. I was sad but I wanted to be with him. I couldn't stand being a hidden girlfriend. I could feel that he wasn't proud and happy to be with me. I blamed myself and I wanted to fix it but all I could do was cry and beg him for another chance. I responded immaturely.

In the end, we broke up. His reason was, he couldn't see me being hurt by him anymore. He already lost his feelings towards me. I was down to my knees. I was disoriented. I felt like I lost my life already. 

After the break up, I had a series of reactions:
1. I was initailly in denial. I denied that I just broke up. I thought it was a normal fight. I thought we could get back together. I was wrong.
2. Then I came into begging for him back. Nothing happened.
3. I became angry and spread my rage all over my blog and any suitable way I could think of.
4. I then tried to accept the break up but deep down inside, I wasn't ready. I tried to fikir all the hikmah.
5. I then tried to beg for him to come back to me. I failed again. He moved on and he told me to do so too.
6. I burst into a rage again and I started collecting evidence to shove in his face. I tried to project my anger towards him.
7. Well now, I am in the stage where my decision is to move on. I know, if he's reading this, he would be rather doubtful and he wouldn't actually believe that I'm moving on. But I am.

I'm sure he'd be more than pleased to know that I'm slowly giving up on him. Maybe what he said was true, I just couldn't mix with him now. Our minds and our wants are completely different. But somehow, there are three things in my point of view that can only make us back together again:

1. Me becoming more matured and being more understanding towards a guy's wants and needs and his ability to commit and validate my feelings.
2. If each of us still saves a part in us for each other. If each of us never wanted to give up.
3. If Allah wills it.

*That's it, that's the end of us. I hope u'd be happy with what u choose. For now, I give up. I don't want u in my life.*

Monday, December 27, 2010

Thank You Mummy ♥ :)

The following is actually an e-mail my mummy gave to me today :) She asked me to check it out.

Aku Tinggalkan Dia Demi Allah

Dengan nama Allah... sebaik-baik Pemberi Ganjaran.

Namamukah yang tertulis di luh mahfuz sana?
Engkaukah yang bakal menemaniku jalan menuju syurga?
Dirimukah yang akan melengkapkan separuh dari agamaku?

Aduhai pria.
Adakah kau yang tercipta untukku?
Jawab pertanyaanku ini.

Kau takkan pernah dapat memberi jawapan,
Kerna jawapannya bukan di tanganmu,
Tetapi di tangan-Nya.

Di tangan Tuhan kita,Allah,
Tuhanku dan Tuhanmu.
Gelisahku memikirkan dirimu,
Dan ketakutanku memikirkan Tuhanku,

Aduhai pria,
Maafkan aku,
Ketakutanku pada Tuhanku melebihi kegelisahanku memikirkanmu.
Jemput diriku pabila waktunya tiba,

Sebelum sampai saat itu, biarkan aku sendiri bersama Si Dia,
Akan kucipta cinta bersama Dia,
Sebelum kucipta cinta antara kita.

Jadilah dirimu kumbang yang hebat,
Dan doakan aku agar menjadi bunga yang mekar,
Untuk itu, Aku tinggalkan dirimu pada-Nya
Sesungguhnya aku bertawakkal kepada Allah Tuhanku dan Tuhanmu,
Tidak ada suatu binatang melata melainkan Dia-lah yang memegang ubun-ubunnya,

Sesungguhnya Tuhanku di atas jalan yang lurus.
Usah bersedih atas perpisahan sementara ini,
Jika benar aku tercipta untukmu,
Tiada apa yang dapat menghalangnya,
Sebelum saat itu tiba,
Berdoalah pada Allah moga diberi kekuatan,
Mohonlah padanya dengan penuh mengharap.

Yakinlah pada janji Allah!
Wanita-wanita yang keji adalah untuk laki-laki yang keji, dan laki-laki yang keji adalah buat wanita-wanita yang keji (pula), dan wanita-wanita yang baik adalah untuk laki-laki yang baik dan laki-laki yang baik adalah untuk wanita-wanita yang baik (pula). Mereka (yang dituduh) itu bersih dari apa yang dituduhkan oleh mereka (yang menuduh itu). Bagi mereka ampunan dan rezki yang mulia (surga) [Surah An Nur: 26]

Sesungguhnya Allah takkan pernah mensia-siakan pengorbananmu,
Bilamana kita tinggalkan semua ini kerana Allah semata,

Akan ada sesuatu yang indah untukmu di pengakhiran nanti.
Dan sesungguhnya hari kemudian itu lebih baik bagimu,
Daripada yang sekarang (permulaan),
Dan kelak Tuhanmu pasti memberikan karunia-Nya kepadamu ,
Lalu (hati) kamu menjadi puas.[Surah Ad dhuha: 4 & 5]

Beruntunglah kamu!
Tatkala Allah memilihmu untuk menyedari hakikat perhubungan antara lelaki dan wanita
Allah memilihmu!
Jangan pernah sia-siakan kasih sayang Allah ini.

Maka Allah mengilhamkan kepada jiwa itu (jalan) kefasikan dan ketakwaannya.Sesungguhnya beruntunglah orang yang mensucikan jiwa itu.Dan sesungguhnya merugilah orang yang mengotorinya
[Surah As Syams: 8-10]

Sesungguhnya orang-orang yang mengatakan:
"Tuhan kami ialah Allah" kemudian mereka meneguhkan pendirian mereka,
Maka malaikat akan turun kepada mereka dengan mengatakan:

"Janganlah kamu takut dan janganlah merasa sedih;
dan gembirakanlah mereka dengan jannah yang telah dijanjikan Allah kepadamu
[Surah Fussilat: 30]

Dan tika kamu merasa lemah,
Mohonlah kekuatan dari-Nya,
Allah itu dekat,
Yakin pasti.

Dan jika syaitan mengganggumu dengan suatu gangguan,
Maka mohonlah perlindungan kepada Allah,

Sesungguhnya Dia-lah yang Maha Mendengar lagi Maha Mengetahui. [Surah Fussilat: 36]

Kamu dan aku adalah intan terpilih,
Berdoalah aku kuat dan tabah untuk menjaga kilauanku,
Berdoalah tiada sang kumbang durjana merosakkannya sebelum yang halal tiba,
Aku juga sentiasa mendoakanmu agar dalam peliharanya sentiasa.

I realise, that I'm far from even being like the woman who tells this story. I'm still too much in love with him but I wish that someday, maybe slowly and steadily, I could be in love with Allah more than towards anybody else. Thank you mummy for this wonderful e-mail. I'm sure I'll keep it as a reminder for me & may it be a reminder to all of my friends too :)

Sunday, December 26, 2010

Another Heart Calls

ReDo you remember when we didn't care 
We were just two kids that took the moment when it was there
Do you remember you at all 
Another heart calls 

Yeah I remember when we stole the night 
We'd lie awake but dreaming 'til the sun would wash the sky 

Just as soon as I see you 
But didn't I, but didn't I tell you 
As deep as I need you, 
You wanna leave it all 

What can I do? 
Say it's true 
Or everything that matters breaks in two 
Say it's true 
I'll never ask for anyone but you 

Talk to me 
I'm throwing myself in front of you 
This could be the last mistake 
That I would ever wanna do 
Yeah all I ever do is give it's time you see my point of view 

Just as soon as I see you 
But didn't I, but didn't I tell you 
As deep as I need you, 
You wanna leave it all 

What can I do? 
Say it's true 
Or everything that matters breaks in two 
Say it's true 
I'll never ask for anyone but you 

But I know what you want is to figure it out 
And God knows I do too 
What can I do? 
Say it's true
I'll never ask for anyone but you 

Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh 
Na, na, na, na, na, na 

I'm sorry 
So what? 
But you don't think I've said enough 
I'm sorry
I don't care 
You were never there 

As soon as I see you 
But didn't I, but didn't I tell you 
As deep as I need you 
You wanna leave it all 

What can I do? 
Say it's true 
Or everything that matters breaks in two 
Say it's true
I'll never ask for anyone but you
But I know what you want is to figure it out 
And God knows I do too 

What can I do? 
Say it's true
I'll never ask for anyone but you 

Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh 
I'll never ask for anyone but you 
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
[to fade] 

Meaning (by Yahoo! Answers):
"Great song, one of my favorites from their new album. Over the course of the song it progresses through the guy leaving the relationship, looking back at their great memories, and then wanting to be back with her. The woman in the song is thinking of taking him back but wants commitment. "Say its true, 'i'll never ask for anyone but you'"

I wonder, of all the love songs in the world, why did we choose this as our song once ago? Ya Allah, why am I feeling so intense and paranoid about this? Sometimes I'd feel okay, sometimes I'd feel so miserable. Huhh. I'm scared when I came across my friend's profile just now. He left his girlfriend and is now with somebody else; happy. I'm scared to face the same situation too. Deep down, I'm scared to see him with another girl but I always put myself in denial. Whatever it is, Ya Allah, please let me wake up tomorrow feeling much much better. 5 posts for today. 3 out of them are just about all these. Please, I want to feel at ease.

Because You Care?

Again, in the "why did we break up" mode. *sigh*

Once again, for quite some time, I shed some tears at the thought of my break up. Pfft. Yea, I'm still not over it. Haish. Aritu cakap tak nak nangis lagi right? Right. But sometimes emotions build up too much until crying relieves them. Something provoked my feelings, well, or as I think. It's not easy to let go of someone u love u know. I'm certain I'm going through a normal grief reaction. I don't even mogok makan. I can study. I can laugh & have a heck load of fun. I just get sad when I think of what happened between him & I. 

Like I said, it's not that easy to simply let go of someone u once loved before. I had an iguana once and it died and I still feel upset reminiscing it's lost. Apatah lagi a losing a human being. Though actually, the person I'm talking about is happy & alive. Hehh.

Just now I stalked his Facebook profile (ouh yes I did, in which I shouldn't! -___-) and he seems so much happier without me. I was like damn youuu! U leave me and enjoy ur life. So that's how u play the game huh?

That was my immediate response.

And it was after that when I cried. I texted him and he DID reply. I asked if I could call him up, but he refused. I know I look desperate. Tell me about it *rolling eyes*. Idk, I just felt like smashing all my anger in his face or technically in his ears. I was angry, I was sad, I was provoked. I was like a monster. A beautiful monster. Ekk.

Then I called up Aiman. He said that he back to his hometown, which is very near to where I am now. Huhh. So near, yet so far.

After the call, I cried even more. I couldn't stand it by myself, so I finally decided to go and meet Nell. I told her everything, of how sad I became all of a sudden. 

"Bell, sebab dia sygkan u lah dia let u go. Dia tak nak mess up with u coz he knows ur a good person. He knows that he can't possibly give back the goodness u give to him while he still nak enjoy living a single life. Allah has reasons kenapa dia buat semua ni. Allah has reasons to break up korang dua after all u have done for him. Allah wants to protect u from committing sins when ur with him. Allah wants u to focus on Him (Allah). Allah has better plans for u. U may deserve someone better, or maybe u'd get him back someday."

I felt much better after hearing what she said. What she said managed to calm me down a little. Yes, the sins, yes, I sinned for touching him, in which I shouldn't, I sinned for forgetting Allah while I was with him, I sinned for focusing too much on him while he was only my boyfriend and not my husband! I sinned so much and I never took note of those. Now Allah has pulled away the person I love so much. I'm certain it's to give me a lesson or two. I told Nell I was scared that Allah wouldn't want to give me a good husband someday. I'm scared Allah will punish me like forever. I felt that I don't deserve a good man after pouring all my love and attention to him once before.

"Bell, don't think like that. Allah maha pengasih, maha pengampun. U realise ur mistakes and u know u don't want to repeat them. Now that ur single, u can concentrate more on Allah. He (Allah) won't give u a bad guy, insyaAllah. After all, u didn't even commit a big sin. Just believe the guy is protecting u and that He (Allah) knows the best for u."

After what she told me, I came back to my senses. I could think clearly. I just hoped that Allah would not let me suffer in my marriage for I regret neglecting Allah while I was so in love with him. 

Then I called up Choy. He's the guy's friend. I just had some things to know. I asked him if he (the guy) has a girlfriend now. He said that that guy doesn't have one, except that he is now close to this one particular girl. He said that the guy didn't even want to make that girl as a girlfriend, maybe just a companion. I expressed how terkilan I was at the fact that the guy was able to layan messaging & calling with that girl. He said maybe dats why he left u. He wants to live without commitment yet and he feels guilty for always making u hanging on and feeling sad. He was sad seeing u always sad. Maybe he just wants to enjoy life first. He even told me that the guy asked his friends to look over me after the break up. 

It hurts to think that he still cares while I don't get the chance to contact him and him treating me as if he hates me. Sometimes I just wished he left me for a cruel reason (like cheating for another girl) so that I can confront him and sembur everything in his face. I just wished karma would get him back. Baru puas hati. But now, what people tell me is, he left me because he cares. It gives me a shorter list of reasons to get angry. 

I'm still left with questions I could never answer myself. I secretly still wish I could be back with him together, but I don't know how I am I going to cope with it if I get the chance. I don't know if I can be forgiving. I just don't know. I don't want to look easy in his eyes. I want him coming back for me, not me coming back for him. With the ego he has, it seems almost impossible for that to happen. I might as well just move on and if he doesn't come back, I'm going to open my heart for another guy.

If there is a one out of an infinity of chances u will be reading this, I want u to know that I still haven't given up on us, but I'm just still hurt by the way u execute ur decision. I want to prove to u that our break up will not bring me down. If u wished that I would become more matured and more understanding after this break up, then I will also make sure I score those too. I'll make sure I'm worth more than I was and gain control of ur respect. I pray u all the best in ur life. Amin.

True Beauty

Especially for Tin Tin, as promised :DDD ♥
Love ya! :)))

Hanis & I

hohoho me double chin :)) hanis looks soooo cameron diaz in this one :DD

Hanis dear, this is the picture of us I have. There's one more, but that one is kinda blurry. I MISS YOU SO MUCH! I'm so happy I met u the other day. And i'm sorry I can't make it to the wedding. Haf tonnes of work to do :( Hope u love it! ♥

Saturday, December 25, 2010

Fei Mau Ahh

Haihh, why laa in the world do I feel so effin' lazy today. Asyik browsing thru people's blogs, fesbuking and guling-guling atas katil. How laa u wan to succeed aii amierah nabillah? Dah dah, cop cop, angkat punggungs, cuci muka, bukak buku. Bismillahirrahmanirrahim!

OMG, that is so me :'D

Friday, December 24, 2010


Tagged by Fatin Nabillah:

apa benda penting dalam hidup anda?

kalau benda, then, jawapannya xde apa sangat :P

kalau manusia, then semua orang yang syg saya *saya wehh* :D

benda terakhir anda beli guna duit?
makanan kat cafe' hahahh :D

di manakah tempat anda akan melangsungkan perkahwinan anda dan apakah temanya nanti?
tak tahu lah, kalai boleh kat tepi cliff. cam garden wedding. tema cam mat salleh punya wedding, tapi nikah la kan. nak pakai baju putih :D

adakah anda sedang bercinta sekarang?
kalau pada mana2 lelaki, then tak :)

berapa lama anda akan mencintai kekasih anda?
for the rest of my life, given if he loves me back & is sufficiently successful. there's no point having a guy yang ada looks and ada duit tapi buaya darat & tak guna jugak having a guy yang cintakan saya *saya lagi wehh* macam romeo and juliet tapi keje hape pun tara. setakat ni, tak jumpa lagi yang ada both the qualities i want. 

di mana anda selalu jumpa kekasih anda?
tak mau cakap lah. history.. :)

novel/majalah/buku terakhir yang dibeli anda?
buku novel ap tah :P

siapakah nama penuh anda?
amierah nabillah binti othman bin abdul razak. hah amik :D

antara mak dgn ayah yg mana anda lebih mesra?
mummy :)

namakan orang yg betul2 anda ingin jumpa dalam hidup anda?
ramai T____T
nak jumpa balik those in the past that i miss so much!

adakah anda basuh baju anda sendiri?
tak, anak-anak je basuh sendiri. haha bapak selekeh soalan ni. yang lain hantar dobi. jimat masa, jimat tenaga :)

di manakah tempat anda betul2 nak pergi?
banyaknyaaaaa tak terkata :) kalau boleh nak pergi rural countries jugak. i loveeee adventure :)

pilih satu 'peluk' atau 'cium'?
peluk :) very calming :)

beritahu 3 benda tentang orang yang beri tag
Fatin Nabilah Ahmad Zhaki:
1# dia comel kecik molek sangat!

2# dia adalah cousin best friend saya dulu :)
3# dia suka shawl keh keh :P

5 benda yang anda sayangi dalam hidup anda
1# laptop
2# handphone
3# shawls
4# jam (yang dah hilang T___T)
5# make up kuuuuu!

lagu yang anda suka dan selalu dengar.
lagu mat salleh. saya dah agak dah saya ni bajet mat salleh aww aww :D

bila tarikh lahir & kt mne korang celebrate tahun lepas ?
26 may 1992. celebrate kat sekolah & truthfully sangat best!!

Takde Keje

This is what u get from bell & nell :D

Melaka Runaway

People say a picture speaks a thousand words. Nah hambek, banyak ni gambar hahaha :D
Really enjoyed my short vacation kat melaka. Rindu melaka weh! Rindu hanis too! ♥

Friday Reds

Pagi pagi buta dah refresh tabs kat laptop nih. Semangat nak tengok updates. Padahal apalah sangat pun updates haha. Salah satu updates paling best hari ni for me:

Haha, siapa dia ni? I just got to know her. Browse thru nuyuk's blog (, lalu ternampaklah akan link kepada blog beliau. Ingatkan dia typical fashionista, rupanya dia jenis yang selamba badak. Videos dia very funny, for me lahhh. Suka tengok gaya dia sangat-sangat. She showed the world her craziness and it's OK! :)

Sebenarnya I'm at the library, nak study konon. Haihhh. Oklah. Kena study. Cya later! :)))

Thursday, December 23, 2010

My Name Is Not Khan

My name is not khan,
so I AM a terrorist?

Haha, tajuk tak boleh blah. Padahal takde kaitan pun. Maybe dalam post ni, I'm gonna sound cam racist sikit kot. Tapi sumpah takde niat. Heeee. & dalam post ni, tak pulak ber-speaking-speakong kan hehe. Malaihhh sket lahhh :P

Dari semalam, I was haunted oleh segala-galanya tentang kaum India. Jangan salah faham *tengok tu, dah salah faham la tu* Takde kena mengena ngan hindraf ke apa wehh. Imma try deliver my story ngan penuh delicate je :)

Kalau kat ACMS Penang ni, Mr Banoo memang nama yang tak asing lagi. Lecturer English yang sangat feymes, dikenali dan somehow, digeruni (?). Haha ayat tak boleh kejam lagi :P I dunno why la kan sebab masa dulu sebab my English class ngan Mr Raj. Mr Raj jenis yang slow motion-lek lu bro punya type. Memang kalau sampai kolej pukul 8 pun (kelas start kul 8), Imma drop by kat cafe beli tiga bijik karipap *punyala take advantage ngan kebaikan dia kan* Tak baiknya aihhh T__T

Tapi untuk sem 2 ni, I got the chance nak belajar ngan Mr Banoo. Perghhh sumpah dia different dari Mr Raj. Totally different. Bangsa je yang menyatukan mereka. He's the strict type and extremely punctual. He purely has his own thoughts and opinions on things.

To cut the story short, semalam I had an oral test. Speaking test la kan. I tell you, memang sumpah dupdap abis laa. Duduk pun hujung kerusi je. Keh keh. I was orang yang 4th last kot. Memang cuak je la sepanjang duduk dalam bilik tu. Setentang dengan beliau. Mendengar kritikan-kritikan panas dan membina. Aduh! I thought Imma be a roast duck! Mana tak nya, time kelas dia, I was one of them yang paling annoying, suka benor bercakap menambah opinion, membangkang dan etc. Nama I loveeee English, memang participate la kan.

Jeng jeng jeng, my time came. Wooohh! I stood up dengan gagahnya, mula membuka mulut, memuntahkan isi2. I talked about the cerita I watched sebulan lepas, "Law Abiding Citizen". Sumpah cerita tu best doh. Kerat-kerat badan orang yum yum haha :D

Sepatutnya, abis cerita, dia akan tanya soalan tau. Memang macam tu la sepatutnya, Tapi yang peliknya, dia langsung tak tanya soalan doh! What I know, I was extremely confused, apasal la pulak Mr Banoo ni taknak tanya soalan nii T___T Dah fikir bukan-bukan dah. What, does he hate me? T___T Pastu fikir-fikir balik, mungkin tak cukup masa kot.

Haha. I knowww, hampeh je kan cerita. Kalau la ada yang tergerak hati nak baca post merepek ni, mesti hampa seribu kali hampa. Tapi tunggu! Ada cerita lagi hahahh. Lama dah wehh tak berbelog :D

Okayla, I hope my oral test punya markah ok laaa. Tak mampu nak ubah apa-apa pun. Redhaaaaa :)

Still under topic ni, I HAVE to mention pasal apa yang I discovered semalam. Kome pergi kat website ni,

Okay, about what I encountered through this website, I put my gambar (which I though cun melecun la), nak tengok la my face macam sape. Kot kot cam Blair Waldorf ke. Test test je la. 

Then I put la gambar ni (Eh serious doh, kenapa la my gambar sume tonggang terbalik eh? Imma pontianak ke apa? -___-):

What I know, resultnya made me gelak berguling-guling atas katil sampai nak tercabut anak tekak. Sampai satu rumah datang serbu bilik knowing how hysterical-ness of my laughter. Hahaha. Try la upload gambar senget kat atas tu kat website tu, kalau rajin plakk kannn. Tengokla my face sama ngan sape dohhh! Hahahh!

I uploaded la gambar-gambar lagi, Tak puas hati siaaa. Last-last dapat gak muka cam sorang prmpuan hottt ni kan. Baru puas hati. Tu pun I tried with my pictures yang terpaling-paling-paling-paling konon cun in my eyes laaaa. Hahaha.

Ok, fuhh, penat menaip. Hahhh, ada satu lagi, just now, my friend gave me a link at my fesbuk. U guys tengokla. My reaction towards this pun macam orang sewel. Hahaha :D

If you realise la kan, cerita-cerita dalam post ni memang berkaitan. Fikirla sendiri apa kaitannya. I don't want to cakap :DDD Okla, I wanna go to Nell's room! Jumpa lagi! Woot woot! :D

Tak pulak yang ni senget kannnn? T___T

Monday, December 20, 2010

Tips To Feel Good About Yourself!

1-Stick to your normal healthy routine. If you don’t have a healthy routine, pick one healthier thing to do today. Do not allow a bad day to give you permission to gorge or be lazy. These are the things that attack how you feel about yourself at the end of the day. Stay steady on your normal daily course.
2-Face any dilemmas head on and as early as possible. The anticipation for these things tend to be worse than the situation itself. Take care of it, put it behind you and get on with your day without the baggage. It will do wonders for your mood.
3-Smiling is contagious. Smile at people, they will smile back and you will get a boost in your mood.
4-Do something with your creativity, hobby or talent. Even if you worked hard today, do something that makes you who you are. When you accomplish something – even a small something – you care about, it makes you feel good. The television will not do this for you.
5-Do not compare yourself with anyone else. Remember, no two people in this world are alike. You have grown with a different experience and talent than the rest and you should be proud of your individuality.
6-Do not mind what others say. Get this fact right – people insult others only to hide their own insecurities.
7-Make a list of the things you like about yourself.
8-Use Affirmations
9-Do a good deed
10-Believe in yourself.First thing is first. Believe in yourself and the value you have as a human being. Do your best and give your best every day.
11-Good vibes. Let your inner light shine. Smile, say Hi to people, laugh, and spread good feelings.
Have a sense of humor. Don’t take things so seriously. Be able to laugh at life and at yourself.
Say what you think, don’t hold back. Have an opinion and stick to it. Do not change your mind and your beliefs to fit in. You’ll regret it later.
12-Do what you say you are going to do. Those who are all talk and no do do not end up feeling good about themselves. If you say you are going to do something, achieve that goal. It is worth it to keep your word.
13-Treat others well. Don’t gossip and cause problems for others. If you have something negative to say, just keep it to yourself (unless this person is bothering you somehow). Be nice to the people around you, whoever they are.
14-Walk with confidence. When you walk down the street, hold your head high and own it! Body language says a lot about a person, and you do not want to be seen as weak. Walk like the Queen you are!
15-Don’t pay attention to gossip: If there is someone who is gossiping about you try to ignore it. Why should their opinion of you matter? Do they even know you well? People who gossip do not deserve your time in getting all upset about them.

Sunday, December 19, 2010


Semua yang berlaku ada hikmahnya :)

Saturday, December 18, 2010

Telengkan Kepala Yawww!

Salam peeps! :) 

These are some pictures back on last Thursday. Actually bergambar2 ngan tintin syggg :) Hee. It was a great deal of fun! These are the pictures which I sempat edit & upload. *Tin tin deary, I'll edit and upload ur pictures soon!*

La Tahzan

Hey peeps :) Hmm, I'm up late tonight sebab nak study sebenarnya. But then badan rasa letih sangat. Nak tidur, but then rasa macam rugi kalau tidur. Nak study pun takde mood. I'm undecided on what I SHOULD be doing.

You know, like what my post title says, I felt like I was actually missing something. Sometimes, to think back of everything I have, I actually do have almost everything I ever wanted. I'm now taking the course that could lead me to the course I want, I have a great family and superb friends, I'm almost satisfied with how I look, but seriously, to me, there seriously IS something missing.

And then I try to think deeper and deeper. Maybe I AM missing something. Something REALLY big. All the times I have been living in this world, my objectives are always berasaskan keduniaan. Hmm. It's common in our society. To be aiming things which are not for the eternity.

I do pray 5 times a day, but I still feel empty inside. I don't know how to collect that strength to focus more on Allah. Even during praying, frankly speaking, my mind would wander off, thinking about all the duniawi things. I hate to think that I'm doing good things not for Allah. It just looks so insincere right? :(

I know I'm not such a good person. I haven't come to the part where I cover my aurat completely. I still swear occasionally. I have this selfishness at times. I know that somehow, I have this huge titik hitam in my heart and sometimes I feel like it's growing. Haishhh. I feel that the right thing to do is mend my heart before I mend the rest because if I do it the other way round, wouldn't I seem like a hypocrite?

La Tahzan, means "Don't be sad". My mummy surprisingly bought me that book, by Dr 'Aidh Abdullah Al-Qarni. It was a coincidence that she bought that book for me. After my break up, I have been aiming to buy that book but I had other things to use my money for. It seemed like a miracle that she bought the book I aimed to buy. I haven't read a single page yet, but I will be reading it soon insyaAllah. Maybe I'd bump into some answers to my worries from the book.

It would be cool if anyone would like to share some opinions here. Thanks for reading :)